Alexis Dimaano Brown,
I wish I could truly express to you how I felt when I think about you at times like these. It’s late at night and I can’t sleep. The thought of you stays on my mind and lingers towards the front of my thought process no matter what I’m doing. I’ll occupy myself with something but the thought of you will follow until it’s enveloped my thoughts to the point where you’re my main focus. I.. don’t understand. It’s definitely a good thing and just the mere thought of you brings tears to my eyes. It’s almost a routine for me to cry for you on nights like these. These tears are tears of happiness. I don’t understand where they come from or why they’re here but I will not question it, ever.
I really don’t know where to begin because it’s so hard to translate how I feel. It’s beyond words and beyond description. I may sound redundant at this point but the feeling still remains in my heart.
You’ve changed my life in ways you probably couldn’t comprehend. You are the spark that triggered a massive chain of events that ended up with me being happy from the start until now. Oh boy, I guess I’ll be linear and tell you what I’m feeling as I write this. I went from tearing up and smiling to straight up crying my eyes out. Those sweet memories flood my mind and I can’t help but wish you were. My feelings for you are something I’ve never felt. I won’t lie and say I’ve never been in love before because I have, and I’m sure you have too. One thing for sure is that I can guarantee you that you and I, we’ve never felt something like this in our life before. It’s not perfect but it doesn’t have to be. I love every single aspect of this relationship. The physical, mental, and emotional attraction is there. We fit together in so many ways possible that we connect on levels that reach higher than anything else. I believe I’m a boring person but when I’m with you, I feel so alive. My mind races towards you, my heart beats a little faster, and my senses are heightened when I’m around you. I never thought that I would sit here and cry for someone in such a happy way. I’ve always been that cold-hearted person so it’s really nice to see my change of heart.
I’m not sure where else to go with this but I really just want to say that I love you so much and I appreciate everything you do for me. I don’t want you to leave my life ever. I’m scared of spiders, I’m scared of heights, I’m scared of a lot of things, but I’d be more scared if you left me. You mean so much more to me than anybody else ever has and I’ll treat you the best. I’ll do completely everything that is necessary to keep you in my life. You’ll be my queen, I’ll show you everything there is to be shown. Please don’t ever leave my life. You’re everything to me.
I love you.
